10 Things That Make Me Cry Are

1. I cry when I'm beyond mad
2. I cry when I'm stressed
3. I cry when I'm scared
4. I cry during Mighty Joe Young
5. I cry when I haven't cried in a long time
6. I cry when I'm hurt
7. I cry when I feel betrayed by someone I love
8. I cry when I'm alone
9. I cry when you cry
10. I cry when reading the book "Before Women had Wings"


I really recommend that book. It's probably more interesting for girls. It's the only book that's ever made me cry. It's an easy read and it's wonderful.

10 Things That Make Me Laugh

1. Kevin
2. Small children
3. Stupid people
4. Craig Ferguson
5. Jersey Shore
6. Super Bowl Commercials
7. Bad drivers
8. Zac
9. Glee
10. Barney Stinson

10 Things I Have Learned So Far...

1. To be strong
2. To stand up for myself
3. To let it be
4. To keep moving no matter what
5. Some secrets are meant to be kept
6. It's okay to be afraid sometimes
7. You need someone to confide in
8. It isn't hard to be a good listener
9. Hard work pays off over time
10. Nothing is ever free

11. Shit just got real (That one's for my baby (:)

10 Things I Believe In

1. Love
2. Happiness
3. Second Chances
4. Redemption
5. Forgiveness
6. Myself
7. Success
8. Laughter
9. Hard Work
10. Family


I just want you all to know that these lists aren't in any specific order. I just write them as I think of them :)

10 Things I Would Love To Have For My Birthday

1. An awesomesauce party
2. A hot tub
3. An awesomesauce hot tub party :)
4. Money
5. My own computer (of the not netbook variety!)
6. A vacation
7. Boooooks
8. A new, bigger, comfier bed
9. A maid
10. A puppy (:

10 Things I Value About Life

1. Kevin :)
2. My Family
3. My Friends :)
5. The People Who Love Me
6. My Job
7. My Blanket
8. My Memories
9. My Pictures
10. My Bear :)


This one was a lot more tough then I had expected.

10 Things...

Everyday I am going to try to do this :) I haven't decided if I'm going to go in order or not but we'll see!

* 10 things that make me happy are...
* 10 things that I value about life are...
* 10 things that I would love to have for my birthday are...
* 10 things that I believe in are...
* 10 lessons that I have learned so far in my life are...
* 10 things that make me laugh...
* 10 things that make me cry are...
* 10 ways that I can help someone else are...
* 10 accomplishments that I have done are...
* 10 places that I would like to visit are...
* 10 memories from the past 12 months are...
* 10 people that I would love to meet are...
* 10 things that I would like to carry with me at all times are...
* 10 expectations that I have of myself are...
* 10 things that I do well are...
* 10 things that I can improve on are...
* 10 things that I love about my family are...
* 10 beautiful things outside are...
* 10 things that I hope happen within the next year are...
* 10 good books that I have read are...
* 10 popular movie stars are...
* 10 popular music groups/artists are...
* 10 fun things to do are...
* 10 great daydreams are...
* 10 special people in my life are...
* 10 responsibilities that I have are...
* 10 things that I would like to do this summer are...
* 10 great movies are...
* 10 skills that I have are...

You should do them too :)

10 Things That Make Me Happy :)

1. Kevin :)
2. My Parents
3. My Teddy Bear
4. My Friends
5. Babies (I don't want one, they just make me smile)
6. Achieving A Goal
7. Being Productive
8. Helping People
9. The Fall
10. Books That Help Me Escape Reality

Bittersweet

Today I am so tired. I don't want to go to work. I want to lay on my couch and watch animation domination. But no. I have to work at 6. It's not that I don't like my job, because I do, I'm just not feeling it today. I think someone should go to work for me.


On a happy note, my ex lost his job, then had to move back in with his parents because he couldn't afford his apartment, then they kicked him out because his little sister is pregnant so now he lives with his girlfriends dad. I know this shouldn't make me happy, but he was super shitty to me and he's finally getting what he deserves. That whole family is. :)

Today is bittersweet.

A lot of things on my mind tonight.

Recently I found my old creative writing journal. I looked through it and a lot of things came back to me. I felt some things I haven't felt in a really long time. I was anxious about things that I shouldn't be worried about. And since then, I've had the urge to write. The only thing is, that when I'm up during the day, I don't want to. The only time I really want to write is when I'm in bed. Kevin's already sleeping and I'm just laying there, thinking about anything and everything. I think I'm going to start writing. I never did before because I felt as though it would be something I would need to do everyday, but I know I don't have to write everyday. I can write whenever I feel like writing. A lot of people would say that writing this blog is like keeping a journal, but it isn't. I want something that only I look at. To my knowledge, only two people have read what is in my creative writing journal, me and Miss. Stillson. And I like that. She wasn't reading it to judge, or grade, but to listen and learn about me. And because of that, I was honest. I wrote what I felt and wasn't worried about what she would think. I like sharing things with the few who read this, but I also like some privacy. There are some things I can't say on Facebook or Twitter. There are some things I can't say on here, but that doesn't mean I don't want to say them. I don't know. I guess that I just need to start doing this for me. Maybe it will help me sleep instead of sitting up thinking about what I could be writing.


Now on another note, I read a blog of a friend today. He had a post titled "Time" and he was talking about how when time moves slowly, we want it to go faster, and when time moves fast, we want it to slow down. He said something about how he needed more time, or he didn't have enough. It got me thinking about time and how we all use ours. I know that we all ask for more, or less depending on the situation, and that it definitely moves at different rates. But him saying that he didn't have enough time stood out to me. I think that we always have the same amount of time, I mean obviously we do, but I mean that whether it's going fast or slow really depends on us. We decide how to use our time, whether to stay busy or to slow down ourselves. I think that when time seems to be moving quickly, you should just stop for a minute or two and do something relaxing, something that isn't rushed. When I worked at Ponderosa and things started getting hectic, I would take a bathroom break. They couldn't tell you that you couldn't go pee. Usually I didn't have to even go to the bathroom, it just became exhausting. I would go in there and just breath. I would clear my mind and relax. Then, when I would go back out there, it seemed a lot easier. I could think faster and be more friendly. I think that everyone should make time for themselves when things are going to fast. Even if it is just a bathroom break.

Oh hey :)

Hi Matt :)

Me!

so for english i have to make a resume type thing for an early start on my future teaching portfolio or something. so here it is :)

Education:
Indiana University South Bend
Currently Enrolled
Mishawaka High School
Graduated 2009
Extracurricular Activities:
Mishawaka Marching Band
4 years
Volunteer Work:
Pulse Fest Volunteer
2007
Experience:
Field Observation
5 Hours
Cadet Teaching
2008-2009
Child Development Day Care
2007-2008
Personal Attributes:
Patience
Honesty
Responsibility
Dependability


idk if that really works but it's what i got for now. so there. :)

today :)

I worked out a little. It was tough. But I think if I keep doing it and take some vitamins (which I'll start taking as soon as I'm off my meds) and drink more water/less soda, I think I'll start to see some progress. I really just wanna lose 30 lbs from my stomach, butt, thighs, and arms. I don't think it'll be too hard as long as I stay motivated. Tomorrow I have time between classes to workout and I think I'll do some cardio. This is gonna work out :)

I Am

going to lose weight :)